Did you know that there’s only 44 days left until Christmas? I mention this because I know an awful lot of people who seem to forget to shop every year until pretty much the last minute. So wake up people! Don’t contribute to the massive hoards of last-minute shoppers!
I, personally, have everything bought except for one or two small things. That’s right; loathe me and know that it’s only because you secretly loathe yourself. MWA HA HA HA HA!
I can’t give any good, honest information based on things such as diet and exercise, so I won’t even bother trying. I can, however, tell you about something I did this week that did just as much for my self-image as losing some weight would.
A few days ago I went through my entire closet (including the husband’s side, much to his chagrin) and gathered up everything that I never wear, focusing primarily on pants that don’t fit. I’ve been holding on to most of these pants in hopes that someday I’d wear them again, but the truth is that even if I did put some effort into it and lose a significant amount of weight, I’d probably never ever wear most of those pants ever again. Some of them pants I’ve had since high school, and since becoming a mommy there’s simply no way my body will ever be that shape again. Others were super-low-riding hip-hugger style, which is just plain not my thing anymore because even if I could be a teenager again I just find it ridiculously uncomfortable to constantly feel like my ass is showing. Others were possibilities – there was a chance I might someday fit into them again – but it could be years before I’m able to lose enough weight to squeeze them on. In the meantime, my closet would have been awash in a sea of unwearable jean material.
So I gathered up all those pants, even a couple of pair that had my subconscious screaming, “No! Not those! You actually might get into those sometime soon!”, threw them all in a bag, and tossed them in the Red Cross donation box outside the mall. And to be perfectly honest I felt super relieved. To hell with those pants. If I do lose weight I’ll reward myself with new pants. But in the meantime I refuse to base my physical self-worth on tiny pants that I might never have worn again even if I could fit into them.
As previously mentioned, editing duties are on hold while I participate in NaNoWriMo, so I have nothing to report. If I ever manage to catch up and get ahead on my NaNovel I might try to finish off the last bit of zombie editing, but for now we’ll just set this one aside.
1,000,000 Word Goal
This week wasn’t nearly as good as I was hoping it might be, partly due to the special project I mentioned yesterday. All total I think I’ve spent at least sixteen hours on this project so far, so that’s a lot of time taken away from writing. Most of my problem, however – as pointed out by my husband, thanks love – is that I’ve been sinking back down into the world known as “wasting time on the internet”. Sure, I’ll write for fifteen minutes, but then I’ll wander over to Facebook and browse for half an hour, and before I get back to writing I’ll wander over to NotAlwaysRight, and oh, since I’m already there I’ll check out all the sister sites as well. I’m a social-media-and-comedy-website junkie, basically. I’m working on it. Really I am.
But in the meantime, I did manage to write 14048 words last week, and the overwhelming number of them were NaNo words, so that’s not too shabby. This week my yearly grand total surpassed 400,000, so between now and the end of the year I’ve got less than 100,000 to hit half a mil. Feel free to cheer me on! Cheering is very helpful, really. 🙂
Of the words written last week approximately 10,000 of them were NaNo words. As of last night (I’m not counting today yet since I haven’t done any NaNo writing yet today) I was at 15212 words, which is a little more than 3000 words behind. I did, however, write almost a thousand words more than the daily goal yesterday, so if I can just do that a couple more times I’ll be all caught up. Plus that special project I keep mentioning is almost done, so I won’t have that to be worrying about.
The real problem is that I’m having trouble feeling my NaNovel. I still hold that the idea was a great one, I think I just didn’t have enough time to really think about what I wanted to do. I’m mostly making it up as I go along and quite a bit of what I’ve been writing is complete and utter crap. That said, NaNo is not a time for fixing stuff up – it’s a time for getting words down at all costs – so I’ve been gritting my teeth and trying to push through. Hopefully at the end of the month I’ll have something that I can at least work with to create something better.
Wish me luck!