Before I get started today, I want to send out a belated “Happy Easter!” to all those who celebrate the holiday, and I hope you had a good one! This Easter was the first one that I really got to celebrate with my daughter since she was too young to understand what it was about the first two years, and last year I was working on the other side of the country during the holiday. Since I had the opportunity I staged a little egg hunt with goodies (cream eggs, M&M’s, mini-eggs, and little plastic bracelets) in plastic eggs. It was too fun watching her run around looking for the eggs, sometimes staring right at them and walking past. She also got a Build-a-Bear Fluttershy (My Little Pony) from us, which was the first thing she ran right for, which of course made my heart melt. Throw in some books and candy and a couple of games for her LeapPad from the grandparents, and the little missy had quite a lovely day, and therefore so did I. Little joys, my friends. Little joys.
And now that I’ve thoroughly cleansed your pallet, it’s time to muck it up with a week’s worth of failure. o.o
Goal #1: Lose ten pounds and become healthier overall.
On the upside of things, I weighed myself this morning and I am almost three pounds lighter than I was when I had my meltdown last week. I’m not exactly sure how that happened, or whether either of those two weigh-in’s was accurate, because it doesn’t seem likely that I lost three pounds in one week without doing anything at all. But for now, I’ll take it.
The bad side of things is that I had an awful week for poor eating, due in part to the Easter holiday. I mean, come on, chocolate was everywhere. I also had a lot more pop than I should have, so I’m reasserting myself to avoid it this week. Water, water, water…maybe if I repeat it enough times I’ll start to enjoy drinking it. lol
The other bad side of things is that I did almost zero activity last week. I hopped on the treadmill once, and that was it. My FitBit should seriously have some kind of shock function that fills me full of voltage if I get fewer than so many steps in a day. >.>
But there is another upside! Kinda. See, I’ve got a plan. My plan partially hinges on the weather not being an ass, but it’s a plan none-the-less. I broke out an old book I’ve got called “Buff Brides” that I used when I was trying to lose weight for my wedding. It’s actually a pretty nice program, laid out in a simple-to-understand “do this on this day” system, and it helped me last time so I figure it can help me this time. The program involves weight training three days a week, starting with simple exercises that neither take too much time nor beat you out so that you end up quitting right away. It also encourages three days a week worth of cardio, so I’m going to hike up my britches, pay that my stomach holds itself together until the doctor’s can give me a more definitive answer about my gastronomic issues, and start my Zombies! Run! app again. I hope to start my new plan this Sunday – starting with a Zombies! run – but I’m not committing to it for certain because I’ve got some other things to deal with between now and then. If not this Sunday, it’ll be the following Sunday. Hold me accountable, people! Ask me how I’m doing and yell at me if I say anything other than “Great!”
Goal #2: Be more active on social media and work hard on my “author platform”.
This week was much like the previous week. I’ve been doing pretty well with Facebook and the blogging community, interacting and getting conversations going and the like. Twitter is my weak point and I’m not really sure what to do about it. For some reason it feels like a lot of extra effort to add that one site to my daily routine, and I think it’s because I can never think of anything to say that I can compress into less than 140 characters. I’m just too wordy, I guess. 😛
Goal #3: COMPLETE my zombie apocalypse novel, Nowhere to Hide.
This is the crux of my failure right here. I keep telling myself that I’m going to work on it, and I keep daydreaming about what it will be like when I’m 100% done and sending the file to Create Space, and yet it never happens. Partially my problem is a mixture of laziness and lethargy – I’ve been very badly obsessed with sitting on my ass and playing video games the past while – but at least part of the problem is good-old-fashioned fear. I long to have my book finished and published, but I also fear it. It’s that stupid human way of fearing both failure and success simultaneously. What is wrong with the human mind? A great many things, it would seem.
That said, I stand before you now (or rather, sit behind my side of the computer screen) and swear to you all that I am going to get something done toward this goal this week. Even if it’s just to go through and fix the invisible typos that my beta-reader pointed out, I will do something this week, I promise.
Goal #4: Write 500,000 words.
You know what? I’ve changed my mind. This is the crux of my failure. If there’s one thing that I know for sure that a writer has to do, it’s write. We have to write, write, and write some more, and then have a couple of cups of coffee and keep writing. I have completely failed this aspect of writer-dom during the month of April. I figured – I really did – that if I wrote and scheduled all my A to Z Challenge posts in advance, then I would have tons of time to write other things throughout April without having to worry about the blog. Technically that did happen. I’ve had time to write. I just haven’t been using it. I completely wasted three weeks of not having to worry about writing blog posts by completely failing to write anything else. This past week the only thing I wrote – literally, the only thing that wasn’t a Facebook status or a comment reply – was last week’s accountability post…for a grand total of 875 words. The really sad thing? That was actually a better total than last week.
So my second promise for this week is to write something every day, even if it’s just a couple hundred words of nonsense. This complete and utter laziness toward writing has got to stop. How can I ever consider myself a professional writer if I don’t write?
6 thoughts on “Accountability Wednesdays: Week 16”
Sometimes, we just have to take a bit of a break to re-ignite our drive. Other times, we need to sit down and force ourselves to write something, anything to get past a block. Hopefully, you just need a break. I often remind myself that building a writing career is a marathon and not a sprint.
I’ve had a couple of people tell me that in the past little while…maybe I should start listening. lol
I think there is a bit of a block right now that I have to push past. Last night I started scribbling down my thoughts in a notebook just to get the ball rolling. Sometimes it’s hard to convince myself to do it, but dumping my brain with pen and paper has helped me push past a blockage in the past.
This definitely sounds like a bit of burn out to me. This happens to me too. I take on way too much, and, faced with certain failure because it’s simply overwhelming, I don’t want to write at all!
Have you tried pulling a few things off your list, instead of piling more things onto it?
Personally, I know that the A to Z challenge has almost obliterated all progress in other areas! It’s worth it though, because I’ve met so many great bloggers and learned a lot. 🙂
I have the unfortunate tendency to be one of those people who can’t focus on one thing at a time. It’s rather horrible because I would probably get a TON more done if I, for instance, did nothing but write on one day, then focused on exercise the next day, chores and errands the day after, and so on, but I just can’t. I’m constantly bouncing from thing to thing, never really getting anything done and totally stressing myself out. Maybe I need some ritalin. lol
That said, I am much more focused than I used to be, believe it or not. Five years ago I would never have been able to focus enough energy to have a blog that consistently updates five days a week. That’s a huge thing for me, truly. So, baby steps I guess? 🙂
I don’t think it’s all that unusual for creative people to feel unfocused at times. Besides, there’s no rule that says you can’t think about your story while you’re running errands. I get some of my best story ideas while I’m driving! 🙂
(And you don’t need ritalin, IMO!)
I’m glad to hear you say that it’s not unusual for creative people to feel unfocused, because that’s how I am ALL THE TIME. lol
What I really need, I think, is the ability to somehow write in my sleep. >.>